Polished To Tough

Yellow sheets did it again.
Yet another company says get us "white" certificates then we can think about it.

Those who have white ones are in. And me......

Counted 3rd company rejecting because of backlogs. And a lot others never considered.
This time i didn't have to struggle for a smile on my face , yes experience. 

Whom to blame? Nobody.
Was my choice, but never expected this tough.

An admission into Govt. run self financed Engg. college in management merit made me to take some decisions.


Until now i strongly believe that i was right.
-only 60-65% aggregate.
-Don't get a campus placement. I want to find a job by myself.
-need supplementary papers, maybe 2 or max 3.
-100% extracurricular activities.
-involve in college politics, thus nurturing myself to be a social responsible human.
-acquire application level engineering knowledge, not textual mugging.
-thus acquire the real life knowledge.


When i look back after 4 years out of college, in 2012.
-somehow reached 60.
-Even if i wanted nobody even bothered to consider me.
-got its 5 times in reality :P
-maybe 200%
-involved and realized it is not the ONLY way to be a responsible human.
-not as expected.
-a lot and a lot.


Unforgettable Engineering Life.

Sincere foolish Love:- Yes we loved each other without telling each other. 
NB:- Guys this stuff is meant for those who has got balls. 

Trustworthy Friends:- always been my asset, even now.

Bangalore...
Became my destination, Embedded Systems calling.. Last ray of hope.

Doing a course after engineering was a must for me, Thanks to BIL for sponsoring course and parents for daily survival.

1 year..whole  1 year .. training..intensive training..
struggled.learned with passion.
First time in my life.
Learned for a cause.


Opportunities, a lot.. getting calls everyday from consultancies, companies .
Impressed with Cranes Software Inc's label and assured me a call back when i disclose supplementary stuff and never again.


Hardly will talk to parents.
If they do 1 or 2 questions only :- When will results be out? Will you pass this time?
Seems like i know the answer.
Both uncertain. CUSAT results and my result.

Then, now and forever my worry was parents, who i really care about, like everybody else.

Dad and mom were on knees praying to god for me, to get my 2 papers cleared.
And they still don't know their son was having 15 altogether and 10 when left college.

Cleared 8/10 papers and there remains the easiest one and toughest one.
Decided to go for tuitions back in Kerala.
But how do i? No money.And can't ask parents.

My best friend's sister.
My best friends.
My Uncles, Aunties.
There goes a list of people who helped me. 

Alas even Cranes told me
:- "Clear your papers and come back, we can think about considering you for placements "
Uncertainty again.

Came home for clearing papers and after i appeared for exams started hunting.


To my surprise got an offer in a startup firm.They had offices in Bangalore and Thiruvananthapuram.

Joined @Bangalore office.
Results awaiting.

Responsibility was to develop students final year embedded projects.

SLN Engineering College, Raichur, Karnataka.
3months...


After effect of my presence , company went through difficult times and had to shutdown Bangalore office.

Back to TVM. The place i never wanted to be:-
only because of................... well talk about it another post.



1-2 months, and they had to shutdown TVM office also.

They managed to buy jobs for rest of my colleagues in a reputed company.
Tried for me, in vain, Backlog buddy.

No place to go.........
Nobody to talk to....
Nobody to share....
Ignorance everywhere...
But this time i was polished tough enough to smile at the above.


Boarded train back to Bangalore, full fledged job hunt...

Bosch, Wipro
Tech was nothing.
HR was everything.
Backlogs again.

Digi, the place i never wanted to be.
Phone in interview
f2f
phone in
f2f

a series of drama. wait continued....


a call from old company MD.
"Bob need a help. You gotta go back to Raichur for a short period."
I never felt hesitation to help a person who gave me a chance.
Had to go there twice and successfully completed all projects.

call from Digi HR again...bob where are you?
Onsite :)

f2f

to my surprise they offered me job..

My cousin bro said:- "this is going to be a good start."
Yes he was always my guide in professional life.

That too i am the one and only one in team....
nobody to help, nobody to train, is that ok for you? HR asked.

I smiled.

HR :- How are you going to face this situation.
Me :-  i've been through a lot already. i can handle it.

Seeing my overconfidence she said conditions apply. if you fail in your exams you are out.

Got into Digi.
Hardly a month after , results out..

CUSAT smiled, alas, Congratulations Er.Bob

The joy i had , i don't know how to express.
Called dad n' mom ,told them.
I felt their joy and peace of mind over the phone.
I will never forget that in my life.

God has taught me a lesson of life.
And now its up-to me how to live my life.
By forgetting the past or remembering always?
I chose the latter.

Whenever i am honored , the past will flash in my mind so that i wont boast about it.


To be honest being here i am totally relaxed and free.
Have a nice team on board.

People say this is the age where you have to work like a dog.

i don't follow the tide. i swim against, i always did, i was taught.


Yes i do believe :- Passion Has Its Price.

With Love....

My first love proposal, without my knowledge.

Soji Joseph:- Class mate & Friend @home. Sports Champion & Feminist. Had some Y Chromosomes extra.

Class leader in LP Scool. Big headache for guys especially for me. Used to report against me to teachers everyday. And i bribed her with "plastic grape fruit" gifts & some other gifts almost everyday but in vain. She even complained against me when i used Syringes to fill my schoolmates mouth with dirty dish-wash water. Now married.

Anu Soman:- Classmate & Friend. Sports Champion & Krishna of that time. Called as "Soman" in short.

Buddy in High School. In all examinations we will be in the same or nearby benches and we together has written those exams. Once i copied his full answer sheet of Hindi Language exam and scored higher marks than him. Now not in contact.

I believe my friends blindly.

I was told Soji gave Soman a Christmas greeting card during a district sports event. I, who literally forget everything and do whatever i can for my friends, forced Soman to buy a card in return. Soman who already had a bunch of girls to handle sarcastically rejected my plea. Wholeheartedly i offered my willingness to buy a card for him and promised to pass this to Soji, who stays near to my home.

A "With Love" Archies card was selected by me and gave it to Soman to sign.
(As a side note my Name is Anu & he is Anu Soman. To avoid confusion actually my high school friends started calling us Bob & Soman). But this idiotic begger had written:-

With Love,
Anu :) :*

It is extremely unethical to open somebody's letter/card especially "With Love". So i carried this "With Love" card back home without even taking the card out of its pouch.

"MTB Oversize 9000" the Ducati 999 of my school days. I took my cycle and headed to Soji's house as i was unable to meet her in front of Chinchu Theatre, Chengannur. Our usual place where we stand and had a "mouthlooking" session for St.Annes Girls. :)
In front of her house Her Aunt, Grandma, and herself. They have seen me. Little worried on what am i going to do. Passed her house with a sarcastic smile.
Came back. With all the will power i had, got down from my cycle and parked it right in front of their fence.
Walked into their lawn with my heads up and said:-

Me:- "Soji, can you come here please i gotta talk to you in person."
Soji:- (wondering what this guy is upto, came to me)
Me:-"Here is a card for you. Its from Anu.I don't know much."
Took an "about turn" and walked away. Heart was beating like anything and with all the power that has left in me i took my cycle and flew from there.

The happiest person in the world. The bold guy. Guy with Backbone. Like goes self praise.
Soman was awaiting the response next day. I said i didn't waited for a response. And promised him to get the response asap.

Evening . Took my cycle for "response receiving".
Same scene, Aunt, Grandma, Soji. Passed home once and came back. Heard a Clap and a call.
"Mone onningu vanne.." (Son, please come here.)

"Hey Bob you gotta show that you got balls. Face the situation", my mind whispered.
Parked my cycle and walked into the lawn. Just like yesterday.

Me:- "Yes Aunty", my heads up.
Aunty:-"Ninakkokke nthinde keedada?, Ente kochine school il vidunnathu padikkana, allande ninne pole kaala kalichu nadakkan alla.".
(What is your problem.The reason my child is going to school is to study and not like you.)
Me:-"Aunty.....athu pinneee". (Aunty, actually..........)
Aunty:-"Onnum parayenda. Innu ninte mummy ee vazhi poyatha, ammachi paranjatha vilichu monte gunapathikaaram parayan. Njana veendannu paranje..Nannavan oru avasaram tharuva.. Meelal ente kochinte purakae nadannekkruthu.. Inna pidicho ninte card".
(Shut up. Grandma was about to tell everything to your mom today when she passed this road. It was me who stopped her. Why i should hurt her for your mistake. Don't ever try to impress my girl. take your card and get lost.)

Holy Cow!!!! I am lucky. Imagine what would have happen if my mom came to know about this. For her i am "Young Samuel", the son she got after her long prayers, from God The Almighty.

I don't remember how i ride my cylce. But i know i reached back home in seconds. And heart was beating like Ducati 999.

I was not knowing what happened. Why she scolded me. Desperately opened the card and saw:-
With Love,
Anu :) :*

Godddddddddddd... Im gonna kill him. Soman..Asshole.

News spread. The whole batch in St.Annes GHS came to know about this incident.
"Anu Bob proposed Soji @ her home."

Scolded Soman for this. He replied:-
"I wanted to save my back. Sorry da Bobeeee". And gave his famous smile.
 :@ :@

Met Soji years after in Facebook. Almost an year back. She told me:- "the way you proposed me was awesome."
WTF!!!!! Girl i never proposed you. It was Anu Soman.
She replied:- "Who is this Anu Soman?"

Fuel Price Hike.

One of Indian government's main source of income.
The legal money that they can easily have.
I do not have the figures. The tax we pay for Fuel, if they use wisely India is going to see a great leap in its current growth.

Now it is Rs.70+ and no one cares. Every single person in India yell & mourn about the price hike.
At the same time they use this Fuel at any Cost.
Protest are initiated saying do not use petrol/diesel for a day. Nothing will happen. Everyone has got it filled.

If the protests has to be effective do not drive our vehicles to office/workplace.. No matter whatever the industry is. All the production/development/consulting should halt for a day.

Government is 99% sure that this will not happen and if the price crosses even Rs.100/ltr people will use it.

Be the change u want to see.